Trying to begin a new chapter

Vulnerability faces me if I date again. Not ready for the pain again. But I do not want to be alone. I miss you so much. I thought you would always be by my side but now you are gone. I blocked you on everything and deleted your number after what you did. I know how bad you are for me and I also knew if I didn't do this my heart would never let go. As I deal with this heartbreak, a new chapter begins. One of fitness, learning, and healthy eating. I know you would be proud of me if I stick with it. At least the past you would be. You would say encouraging words like "Boo Boos, You gots Uh Degree! I am so proud of you. I don't know how everyone else doesnt see all that you do!" Anyways that all for now.